My Last Love Letter.
ft. a lot of noteable people, but mostly, you.
ready your tears, I guess? 😅
Sorry I couldn't write you a real letter this time, bud. My schedule is too tight for me to plug you in. I'll make it up to you for the rest of the school year, I promise.
Yet, you owe me. A meetup, a video call, and an ice cream. Or maybe never mind, I'm sure you wouldn't make the same effort I keep on doing, so, carry on.
But I won't go there. I won't..
I am so, so, sorry ☹ I was the reason why you lost most of your friends within a blink of an eye. It's my fault. Trust me, we'll make a way to keep you close to people you could trust. Your friends will be there for you, I promise... They got your back while I'm not the one who's around for you.
I too, am sorry for not trying to have your back despite you losing your friends. I didn't know what to do. To be honest, I didn't know that time if I should still love you but as it turned out that night, I was actually trying to push you away. *that's why instead of staying up to check up on you, I put it to sleep.*
I then realized the following morning that I'm leaving you just like how all the boys in your past did to you: and I didn't want that to happen to you, especially for a guy like me. The moment I realized that, that's when I fully understood, I really still did care a lot. 😝
Thanks for actually admitting your feelings to me. You're confused, but I'm happy that you still are treating me as if I'm your brother. I hope you're also happy that I'm treating you like my girlfr-- sister. 😏
My summer this year was the best. I was able to hang out, go to 2 sleepovers, play games, study a lot, join and win the basketball league, and most of all, spending the summer with someone really dear to me. I hope that you enjoyed your summer as well even if some things happened to you recently. (even if I was only part of your summer) 🏖
Now that we're a year away from graduating high school, I'm more worried about the fact if by the time we're at college, we'd have the same closeness we have as great friends. Heck, I'm pretty sure some of our classmates think we're a couple (lmao nah 🙅) But you know what, let's talk about college soon, before we actually graduate. I want to talk about how this summer, you shone brightest. I'm not going to mention how many times you said you missed me or even those times you actually wanted to talk to me, because I know, okay. <4 times total>
I've been overthinking lately. About all my friends, and that included you. To be honest, you guys were (and still are) the reason to why I want to be happy. But right now, I only feel comfortable talking to a handful of people, because I'm getting used to having smaller circles for friends.
Overthinking took its toll on me twice by far. Last week, and tonight. I had an anxiety attack last week, and tonight, my head hurt really badly until I dropped nearly looking dehydrated on my bed. The worst part was I hope you'd be around, but I know you wouldn't. So I had to keep the pain for myself, thinking too much just makes me feel absolutely sick. 🤧
But always remember, no matter how much I turn to hate you a lot often times, you're still the most adorable, cute, little (and annoying) girl I've ever met. You're a fun person, but also a dry chatter. I learnt a lot of things about you this summer. Hopefully this school year, it's time you knew things about me. I'll be fair this time. No exceptions. Don't worry, the more you tag me in your Twitter feed, the better. I missed that a lot. Sorry na kung nagkaka-happy crush na rin ako, siguro kasi masyado kang matagal na nawala. 🧀
So! This long letter has reached its end. I just want to thank you for being there at the right place, even though you were a little late. I hope you don't quit on me, even though at times I feel like giving up on you. This time, I'll keep the promises I made. 🙏
With that.. uhm. Yes, you still owe me 3 things.
But I'll keep on thinking that I'm not worth the effort I keep on doing. If one day I get tired of you, remind me of the 4 letters I have already given away to someone who means a lot to me.
*this time, you don't have to reply. :)
**last letter ko na to. sayo. 😢
For some reason 11:11 wishes are overrated. Some wish them to be posted on Twitter, others pray, others greet their, well, loved ones. As you may suspect, I never did the same wish since September because I know you wouldn't think that it'd be you.
Pretty much from the start, you were always the one I could think of when I thought of that particular time in the clock. I could've thought of this girl named Zoe. I could've wished for new stuff like new shoes. I could have wished for something more than you.
But uhm. No. I can't really think of something more when your name just keeps crossing my mind. Seeing you smile in the pictures make me think that you have such a dazzling appeal whenever you appear bright and happy.
Yup, I just want to tell you: you're more than enough.
Don't feel alone whenever people won't be around for you. Always know that someone in the heavens above would never leave you and never stop loving you. The only thing He wants you to do is just pray. A prayer would instantly keep you guided no matter where you are, and no matter what situation you're in. I didn't really tell you this: but us Bosconians' main goal is to also spread goodness and show excellence to others as well. With that, faith is also practiced in our school, if you didn't know 😉
So what I wanted to tell you this time, and I mean this: you know you don't want to see me go away. You can tell me that it's my choice to leave you be or stay still, but ever since you told me that the first time, you don't want me to go, and still I know you don't want me to go.
How do I know that? You care.
It's been a wild and vast array of letters actually tried to be sent to you, with the first putting you in tears. If I were to leave a legacy by the time I'll be away, you know I would be your Mailman. I mean, I send letters, so..
Now what? Well, it's all up to us now. No matter how many times you'll say you like me, I wouldn't even think that it'd be a huge thing. To be honest, it's enough for me to do everything I could just to prove that I'll always be there.
Di tayo. And probably, if ever nagka-spark uli, it would be in a while. Crush lang kita. Kaibigan mo lang ako. I did every style of lettering one could do. Handwritten, email, and chat. Probably the reason I'll stop making letters in the near future. Or possibly, stop writing ever.
Pero thank you!! Sa lahat. Tinanggal mo yung sakit at pait sa huli kong nagustuhan. Tinuro mo sakin yung pakiramdam kung pano magmahal kahit di humingi ng kapalit (kahit may utang na 600 pesos at 3 iba pang bagay.). Tinuro mo sakin na hindi lang dapat magmahal para maging masaya ang isang tao. Tinuro mo sakin ang halaga ng pagkakaroon ng kaibigan. Pag ibang babae siguro yung pinageffortan ko, may gf na siguro ako ngayon. Pero ayaw ko pa, parang mas gusto ko pang mahirapan. Lalo na kapag di mo sure kung ano yung kalalabasan. So pano ko malalaman yun? Makikita natin!
Cheers! HAHA di ako umiinom pero sana pag iinom na ako, ikaw unang kasama ko. 😅 sana di ako mahilo agad lol
To my 11:11 wish. I love you! 🥂
with matching blue hearts,
I love you, and tca!! 💙
p.s. You think I wouldn't disgust you? No! Hahaha!
anyways zzz. you look perfect with short hair. hehe.
If ever we split all of a sudden...
I wish I knew you one more time.
july 27, last year btw.
I'll stop annoying you na if ever :(
ready your tears, I guess? 😅
Sorry I couldn't write you a real letter this time, bud. My schedule is too tight for me to plug you in. I'll make it up to you for the rest of the school year, I promise.
Yet, you owe me. A meetup, a video call, and an ice cream. Or maybe never mind, I'm sure you wouldn't make the same effort I keep on doing, so, carry on.
But I won't go there. I won't..
I am so, so, sorry ☹ I was the reason why you lost most of your friends within a blink of an eye. It's my fault. Trust me, we'll make a way to keep you close to people you could trust. Your friends will be there for you, I promise... They got your back while I'm not the one who's around for you.
I too, am sorry for not trying to have your back despite you losing your friends. I didn't know what to do. To be honest, I didn't know that time if I should still love you but as it turned out that night, I was actually trying to push you away. *that's why instead of staying up to check up on you, I put it to sleep.*
I then realized the following morning that I'm leaving you just like how all the boys in your past did to you: and I didn't want that to happen to you, especially for a guy like me. The moment I realized that, that's when I fully understood, I really still did care a lot. 😝
Thanks for actually admitting your feelings to me. You're confused, but I'm happy that you still are treating me as if I'm your brother. I hope you're also happy that I'm treating you like my girlfr-- sister. 😏
My summer this year was the best. I was able to hang out, go to 2 sleepovers, play games, study a lot, join and win the basketball league, and most of all, spending the summer with someone really dear to me. I hope that you enjoyed your summer as well even if some things happened to you recently. (even if I was only part of your summer) 🏖
Now that we're a year away from graduating high school, I'm more worried about the fact if by the time we're at college, we'd have the same closeness we have as great friends. Heck, I'm pretty sure some of our classmates think we're a couple (lmao nah 🙅) But you know what, let's talk about college soon, before we actually graduate. I want to talk about how this summer, you shone brightest. I'm not going to mention how many times you said you missed me or even those times you actually wanted to talk to me, because I know, okay. <4 times total>
I've been overthinking lately. About all my friends, and that included you. To be honest, you guys were (and still are) the reason to why I want to be happy. But right now, I only feel comfortable talking to a handful of people, because I'm getting used to having smaller circles for friends.
Overthinking took its toll on me twice by far. Last week, and tonight. I had an anxiety attack last week, and tonight, my head hurt really badly until I dropped nearly looking dehydrated on my bed. The worst part was I hope you'd be around, but I know you wouldn't. So I had to keep the pain for myself, thinking too much just makes me feel absolutely sick. 🤧
But always remember, no matter how much I turn to hate you a lot often times, you're still the most adorable, cute, little (and annoying) girl I've ever met. You're a fun person, but also a dry chatter. I learnt a lot of things about you this summer. Hopefully this school year, it's time you knew things about me. I'll be fair this time. No exceptions. Don't worry, the more you tag me in your Twitter feed, the better. I missed that a lot. Sorry na kung nagkaka-happy crush na rin ako, siguro kasi masyado kang matagal na nawala. 🧀
So! This long letter has reached its end. I just want to thank you for being there at the right place, even though you were a little late. I hope you don't quit on me, even though at times I feel like giving up on you. This time, I'll keep the promises I made. 🙏
With that.. uhm. Yes, you still owe me 3 things.
But I'll keep on thinking that I'm not worth the effort I keep on doing. If one day I get tired of you, remind me of the 4 letters I have already given away to someone who means a lot to me.
*this time, you don't have to reply. :)
**last letter ko na to. sayo. 😢
For some reason 11:11 wishes are overrated. Some wish them to be posted on Twitter, others pray, others greet their, well, loved ones. As you may suspect, I never did the same wish since September because I know you wouldn't think that it'd be you.
Pretty much from the start, you were always the one I could think of when I thought of that particular time in the clock. I could've thought of this girl named Zoe. I could've wished for new stuff like new shoes. I could have wished for something more than you.
But uhm. No. I can't really think of something more when your name just keeps crossing my mind. Seeing you smile in the pictures make me think that you have such a dazzling appeal whenever you appear bright and happy.
Yup, I just want to tell you: you're more than enough.
Don't feel alone whenever people won't be around for you. Always know that someone in the heavens above would never leave you and never stop loving you. The only thing He wants you to do is just pray. A prayer would instantly keep you guided no matter where you are, and no matter what situation you're in. I didn't really tell you this: but us Bosconians' main goal is to also spread goodness and show excellence to others as well. With that, faith is also practiced in our school, if you didn't know 😉
So what I wanted to tell you this time, and I mean this: you know you don't want to see me go away. You can tell me that it's my choice to leave you be or stay still, but ever since you told me that the first time, you don't want me to go, and still I know you don't want me to go.
How do I know that? You care.
It's been a wild and vast array of letters actually tried to be sent to you, with the first putting you in tears. If I were to leave a legacy by the time I'll be away, you know I would be your Mailman. I mean, I send letters, so..
Now what? Well, it's all up to us now. No matter how many times you'll say you like me, I wouldn't even think that it'd be a huge thing. To be honest, it's enough for me to do everything I could just to prove that I'll always be there.
Di tayo. And probably, if ever nagka-spark uli, it would be in a while. Crush lang kita. Kaibigan mo lang ako. I did every style of lettering one could do. Handwritten, email, and chat. Probably the reason I'll stop making letters in the near future. Or possibly, stop writing ever.
Pero thank you!! Sa lahat. Tinanggal mo yung sakit at pait sa huli kong nagustuhan. Tinuro mo sakin yung pakiramdam kung pano magmahal kahit di humingi ng kapalit (kahit may utang na 600 pesos at 3 iba pang bagay.). Tinuro mo sakin na hindi lang dapat magmahal para maging masaya ang isang tao. Tinuro mo sakin ang halaga ng pagkakaroon ng kaibigan. Pag ibang babae siguro yung pinageffortan ko, may gf na siguro ako ngayon. Pero ayaw ko pa, parang mas gusto ko pang mahirapan. Lalo na kapag di mo sure kung ano yung kalalabasan. So pano ko malalaman yun? Makikita natin!
Cheers! HAHA di ako umiinom pero sana pag iinom na ako, ikaw unang kasama ko. 😅 sana di ako mahilo agad lol
To my 11:11 wish. I love you! 🥂
with matching blue hearts,
I love you, and tca!! 💙
p.s. You think I wouldn't disgust you? No! Hahaha!
anyways zzz. you look perfect with short hair. hehe.
If ever we split all of a sudden...
I wish I knew you one more time.
july 27, last year btw.
I'll stop annoying you na if ever :(
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